Who you are…

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I love music.  I always have.  I can remember being younger and in the car with my parents and I would instantly start singing along to whatever song came on the radio.  Dad teased one time that if they could put all of my school work to music, I would be a child prodigy!

Music raises my spirits… speaks to my soul… makes me happy… makes me sad… makes me dance… makes me cry.  There are so many different songs that evoke a spectrum of emotions and are my go to songs for different moments in my life.  Like the famed mix tapes of my youth (I could literally spend HOURS making mix tapes as a kid with my purple boombox), I now make endless playlists on Spotify.  My “Get it Girl!!!” running playlist.  My “It’s my Zen” playlist for when I need to be chill.  My “Sassafras” playlist when I feel fierce and silly.  The lists going on and on.

The second I get in the car, the radio, XM or my phone get turned in and the music starts to flow.  I’ll get hooked on certain genres or albums at times but today I decided on just picking something random.  I loved the tv show “Smash” when it was still airing on NBC.  Cheesy?  Yes.  Glee meets Broadway? Sure.  Guilty pleasure?  Of course!  Did I download the album?  Um, duh!  It’s a mix of original songs for the tv show but also covers by the cast of songs like “Beautiful”, “Shake It Out”, “Haven’t Met You Yet’ and others.  The one that I got stuck on and replayed is one of my favorite versions of the original Jessie J song, “Who You Are“.  Thanks to the Atlanta traffic, I was given the gift of some extra time listening to the lyrics and they got me thinking.

Life is a roller coaster.  I’ve got friends who are the height of happiness….getting married… having babies… succeeding in their careers… succeeding in their health and fitness goals.  The list goes on and on.  I’ve also got friends who are at challenging times in their lives…. getting divorces… crossroads in their careers… health setbacks… deaths of friends and family members.  Such highs and such lows.  I’ve got friends who battle depression quietly.  I’ve got friends who are the picture of positivity.  When it all comes down to it though, each one of those friends is on a separate journey.  As I listened to the lyrics, I thought about all of these different friends.  I thought about my own life and where I am on my own personal journey.

I stare at my reflection in the mirror: “Why am I doing this to myself?” Losing my mind on a tiny error, I nearly left the real me on the shelf. No, no, no, no, no…Don’t lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It’s okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it’s hard to follow your heart.
Tears don’t mean you’re losing, everybody’s bruising,
Just be true to who you are!
(who you are…who you are…who you are…)

As humans (not just as women), I think we are too hard on ourselves.  There’s so much pressure to be perfect.  To have your life figured out.  We need to remember no matter what our age that we shouldn’t lose sight of who we are.  It’s okay to follow our hearts when we are at a cross roads.  We also need to remember that it’s okay to be happy or sad or every emotion in between if that means we are being true to who we are…

Brushing my hair—do I look perfect?
I forgot what to do to fit the mold, yeah!
The more I try the less it’s working, yeah
‘Cause everything inside me screams
No, no, no, no, no…

Don’t lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It’s okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it’s hard to follow your heart.
But tears don’t mean you’re losing, everybody’s bruising,
There’s nothing wrong with who you are!

Yes, no, egos, fake shows, like whoa!
Just go and leave me alone!
Real talk, real life, good love, goodnight,
With a smile that’s my home!
That’s my home, no…

No, no, no, no, no…

Don’t lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It’s okay not to be okay…
Sometimes it’s hard to follow your heart.
Tears don’t mean you’re losing, everybody’s bruising,
Just be true to who you are!
Yeah yeah yeah

 We don’t need to fit one specific mold.  We need to be true to us.  We need to stay on the roller coaster that is life.  We need to experience the highs and lows….and we need to remember that we have those people in our lives…our friends our family… that can show us the “real talk, real life, good love, goodnight with a smile that’s ‘our’ home!”

After the Smash version of the song, I listened to one of my favorite versions of “Who You Are“.  It was an acoustic version that Jessie J performed at one of her concerts.  She wanted it to be that song you go to to pick you up.  That song that helps you in this journey called life.  At the end of the song, she has everyone shout out their names.  She tells them to believe in themselves.  That you can do achieve anything that you put your mind to.  To be a go getter.  I would offer one more level to all of that.  I challenge all of us…I challenge myself to look into the mirror.  To not not get lost in any tiny errors.  To not leave the real me on the shelf.  To remember that it’s okay not to be okay.  To remember that out there…someone has tears and is bruising.  To remember to be the good love…to be the smile that is someone elses home.  To be true to who I am…  To be who you are no matter where you are on the roller coaster of life.  To be who I am and love it.

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