My Dance with Barre3

Do you remember your first school dance? Take yourself back to that gymnasium. Boys on one side.   Girls on the other. Hushed whispers and giggles. Awkward glances across the room at each other but no move by other party to cross the dreaded half court line. But then there’s that song…that one song that starts to play that somehow stimulates the social inertia hanging in the room and a step is made. A step to the other side of the room. Gradually boys and girls moved towards the middle of the room and the dance officially begins. And then that moment… that moment when the person you’ve been glancing at comes over and asks you to slow dance and you never forget that song for as long as you live.

 

I feel like that’s the perfect description of my dance with my physical fitness and health journey.

As many of you know (and I’ll share later for those of you who don’t), I have battled Advanced Stage IV Endometriosis, Ovarian Remnant Syndrome, high risk for Ovarian Cancer, Ovarian Cysts and to top it all off, I am part of a very rare group of women that can regrow ovarian tissue even after having had a total hysterectomy and both ovaries removed and subsequent radical surgeries to remove masses. But I digress…

 

Over the course of my life but especially this past year, I’ve felt like my relationship with physical fitness and being healthy has been like my first high school dance. I’ve stood on one side of the gym and my physical fitness goals have been placed on the other side of the room. There have been hushed whispers but not many giggles. Most definitely awkward glances across the gym and perhaps thwarted attempts to cross the dreaded half court line but ultimately, like an overzealous chaperone, my health challenges (and mindset) quickly moved my goals and me back to the opposite sides of the gym. And then that song…that perfect physical fitness fit… stimulated my physical inertia and a step was made. A step by me towards my physical fitness goals and the dance began. And then there was that moment… that moment when the physical fitness community I’ve been searching for finds me and asks me to slow dance and I’ll never forget that song for as long as I live. That song for me is Barre3. (You can read more about my “official” review at my sister blog A Hungry Southern Belle….this is my personal story of my journey.)

 

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Where to even begin with sharing my passion for the community that is Barre3? I know there will be many stories that I will share but the one that stands out in my mind and in my heart goes back to an amazing class in studio a few weeks ago. As we were finishing our class with our restorative stretching, a familiar song started playing in the background. A song that has always been a favorite but now, for so many different reasons. … Breathe Again by Sara Bareilles

“Car is parked, bags are packed, but what kind of heart doesn’t look back
At the comfortable glow from the porch, the one I will still call yours?
All those words came undone and now I’m not the only one
Facing the ghosts that decide if the fire inside still burns”

I can remember when I was going through my divorce and after it was completed that I found running as an outlet. This song was always on my playlist. I can remember turning up the volume and feeling Sara’s velvety voice falling over me like a blanket. Her lyrics and raw emotion elicited the same emotion from within me. Yet on this day, as I was stretching in the studio, I no longer felt the raw emotion I did when I would hear the song during one of my runs. Instead, I felt a new found inner strength. An inner strength of the knowledge that I choose to control my life and life circumstances. An inner strength of the knowledge and faith that I am in a committed relationship with an amazing man who I love dearly. A man who “holds my love in his hands…”

“All I have, all I need, he’s the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands, still I’m searching for something
Out of breath, I am left hoping someday I’ll breathe again
I’ll breathe again

Open up next to you and my secrets become your truth
And the distance between that was sheltering me comes in full view
Hang my head, break my heart built from all I have torn apart
And my burden to bear is a love I can’t carry anymore”

 

And then I felt that same velvety blanket fall over me but this time because I knew deep in my heart that my life is whole. Even with my health challenges facing me every day, I no longer hurt. I am blessed with amazing parents, friends and the love of my life. I have a career that challenges me and makes my efforts feel valued. And now I have a studio that I call home…a physical fitness routine that I not only love but look forward to going to every day. In that moment I knew… I’ve breathed again.

“All I have, all I need, he’s the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands, still I’m searching for something
Out of breath, I am left hoping someday I’ll breathe again

It hurts to be here
I only wanted love from you
It hurts to be here
What am I gonna do?

All I have, all I need, he’s the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands, still I’m searching
All I have, all I need, he’s the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands, still I’m searching for something
Out of breath, I am left hoping someday I’ll breathe again
I’ll breathe again”

 

As I mentioned before, I know that I’ll be able to share so much more about my Barre3 journey, but I would be remiss in not sharing some of my most recent success stories. Since November, I have been doing the online Barre3 workouts, community classes and now in studio (when it opened in March 2014), I have lost 41 pounds. Most recently, I participated in the Love Your Lower Body 8 week challenge. My success was astounding! I lost 16 pounds and over 26 inches all over in just those short 8 weeks! Here’s what the author and owner of Barre3, Sadie Lincoln, shared about the book.

“Using my signature barre3 formula for success (including barre3 workouts, nourishing meals, and connecting with others for motivation), the program quickly transforms your body and tones those hard-to-reach trouble spots like your belly, hips, and thighs. You won’t just shed extra weight and inches, though—you’ll also reduce stress, gain energy and learn how to nourish your body with delicious whole foods. What’s not to love about that?

My book is filled with invigorating workouts, clean-eating tips, motivational tools, and more. Inside you’ll find a detailed fitness plan, a flexible and delicious nutrition program, plus tons of simple-to-prepare recipes.” 

That’s exactly what I did! I did the majority of my workouts in studio. The biggest change that I made was moving to whole/clean eating by following the nutritional suggestions. What a difference that has made to my overall health and well being. I feel amazing and strong!

As this blog is a place for me to share my personal stories, I’ve made the decision to as honest and “raw” as Sara was with the lyrics of her song, Breathe Again. I’ve chosen to share the before and after pictures from my 8 week Love Your Lower Body Challenge, if for no other reason than to hopefully inspire just one person to take on the challenge themselves and know that it is absolutely possible to get yourself to a better place physically.

 

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So much like that first school dance and remembering that song when you danced with the person you’d hoped for all night, I will never forget my first dance with Barre3. This community that I love that helped me to breathe again…

 

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2 Responses to “My Dance with Barre3”

  1. You are amazing with how much you have been through and just how much you continue to push through. I know it hasn’t been easy and I am sure there are hard days, but you are an inspiration in so many ways.

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